Have You Ever...?

I think a lot about a friend lately.
This friend has always call me and we shares a lot of stories.
Good and bad.

When I keep on thinking about someone A LOT, everyday...I always wonder how are they doing? Is there anything happen to them?

This happen to me lately, and it happened before.

So, this friend has not been in contact with me for quite sometimes. And, a bit unusual.
Silently, I becoming concern and a bit worry, keep on asking myself if this friend is in a good condition or not...

My Q answered, this friend pop up on my YM screen one night and explained what happened and what is also still happening...and this friend is in a deep mess...

It happened before when I was in uni...

I was alone and suddenly my mind thought about my house mate, the same Q popped into my mind "is she ok?"...and I was worrying.

True enough, when she came back to our apartment and told me that she had a big fight with her partner, read : real fight!
Immediately I asked her what time was the incident happened, and the time she told me was around the time when I was thinking about her...

Perhaps, God give me this instinct...for me to keep on remember that I have a good friends around me. And this friend...is a good friend of mine.

Have you ever feel that way?

One After Another

I found a note on the desk, in the morning.
The intention of the sender, for me to look into that the first thing upon my arrival.

The feeling?

I don't know..really.

I don't expect to receive such an appreciation message, well of course on top of that there are instructions on the things that need to be done and to be completed by mid of next week! Madness!

Huh! The appreciation note that really bothering me, cause I don't think that I seems like promising that I will last, did I?

I'm not sure, to me it's just a responsibility to be done. But I can smell that somebody's counting on me. Arrgh! I hate this about-to-feel guilty feeling!

That was the one side of the stories for this week.

Which was in a way made a little bit of my day.

The bad ones?

I went to see some good old friends last Saturday. They happened to have something seems perfect for me and of course for them too...I too so excited to be with them and the truth?...I'm counting days to join them.

Monday...no news.

Tuesday : the phone rings and I knew the number, "finally, yes! they called" BUT...very sad, I didn't make it..according to them, "the test didn't match the..." and "owh...ok, thank you for letting me know" I said.

The truth? I can't believe it! And from a friend, they are sad cause I didn't make it...(that flattered be, really!)

I was sad and I cried. But the other part of me telling me that it may be a blessing in disguise, maybe God want to make things easy for me. Alhamdullilah, I've got the other one...

But for now, I wanna go to where my heart is...

NOW WHAT

I got really sicked with the back stabbers, so I quit.

But I need money, so I work again.

After a few weeks for a new thing, I started to hate it even more!

I want it on my own way...but I need some ways.

Here I am, struggling...to get my own.

But I know where my heart is...