call me emotional...............

Different people treat their life differently.
Same goes here.

Consistently the thought travels throughout the mind and the soul too.
Chosen to live with the thoughts and not wanting it to be forgotten because I appreciate the ‘precious’
Certainly it can’t be replaced because it is very special and the whole thing brought something out of this world completely.

When the touch is wanted, when the thought is wanted, the words hit the nerve through the thin air and filling it sweetly and breathe with it while you can.

And wishing to have the feeling forever…..and please remind me with the words again…

But when the words reach you with no rhythm, with no sweet lullaby, suddenly the feeling hit…unwanted?

I always believe the feeling is a gift, regardless….
Always treasure the happiness and always wanting it to be endless.
But it sometimes makes you confuse, whether the thought was the same? Whether it is still the same? Keep on telling you that there’s always a reason behind any unpleasant feeling…..
The truth? It hurts every single moment, feeling unwanted…ignored.
When every single rhythm count, every single sense is killing when the action didn’t turn out to be the way you want it to be…

Please remind me with the words again…for me to breathe…..

Call me emotional………if you want to cause that’s how I live my life…

love........?

i captured some words playing on tv recently asking if we are afraid of living a day without love, if we are nothing without love, and bla…bla..bla..without love…

so, I’m asking myself the same question, and imagining if I falls under the category with or without love. And what type of love?

Honestly, I can’t live without people around me.
I can’t live without talking to people in a day.
And it’s just a nature that I’m so thrill whenever I’m going to meet new people…regardless.

I have a detail talk with a friend recently about being under our star.
So happened that our birth date is one day after another!
So we confessed to each other on our reactions, feelings and actions when it comes to any situation even on our feelings when we face certain people that make us happy or make us feel very low, and we shared almost the same habit, actions and perceptions….towards people and life.

And when it comes to love, I’m not sure…part of me wanting the feel of being so loved by the loved one and part of me wanting the thrill of me to search and chase for the love…weird. But it’s true…

So which category did I fall into…?

.......if you wonder.........

some offline messages i received from someone wondering about me...

so i told that someone :

if you wonder...
@ this time while i'm writing this, it's raining heavily here. it's cooling and i've been wanting the feeling so bad after sometimes when the weather being so hot...
and deep inside i wish the one who is going to read this is rite by my side comforting me...
and the truth, i'm on my way for a shower after a long hard day, but been wanting to be here first writing what's in my mind...

and one thing for sure...raining is really comforting...

i think it's beautiful......

Bertanya sang bayu pada ku
Mengapa kau masih disitu
Tiadakah jemu kau menunggu
Ohhhhh
Dan buat seorang perindu
Penantian hanya lah waktu
Dikamus hati ku
Tiada istilah jemu
Ohhhhoh
Hentikan lah saja
Jenaka bermadah
Biasa terlalu sering ku dengar
Ceritera cinta tiada berubah
Hanya mimpi yang indah
Akhirnya nanti kecewa
Buka lah sedikit hati mu
Kenali siapa daku
Ohhh
Beri ku pendam rasa hati
Malu mengakui
Ohhhhhh oh
Hentikan lah saja jenaka bermadah
Biasa terlalu sering ku dengar
Ceritera cinta
Tiada berubah hanya mimpi yang indah
Akhirnya nanti kecewa
Tanpa mahu mengakui kau pun dihati
Diluar sedar kau ku rindui
Penantian hanya ruang waktu
Tiba masa kan terbukti cinta ku
Ohhh
tak mudah percaya pada pengakuan aku di hati mu yang tersayang
Hentikan lah saja
Jenaka bermadah biasa terlalu sering ku dengar
Ceritera cinta tiada berubah hanya mimpi
Akhirnya nanti kecewa

JACLYN VICTOR & RIO FEBRIAN - CERITERA CINTA

To All Lovely Ladies Out There

it's been sometimes i didn't follow local music development.
but for sometimes last year i've been following some of the local band which i never know it was local band!

and ESTRANGED to be exact make me change my perception over local either single artists or bands.

they are good, and the ITU KAMU song was so cool the video...very sophisticated.

so tonite, they won the AJL 2007 and i was jumping and screaming happily...i know! i know! but can't help it!

watching their live performance during the Xmas week at the Curve was something...the feeling..
yeah, i'm proud for being a women..

so, for some entertainment, enjoy the clip and the beautiful song that won the AJL 2008!

mmuuaaahhh!

Segala yang ku pasti akan ku capai tuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cinta ku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hati mu
Mengingkari dalaman akal mu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu,
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yg terang

Hatiku mahu mu
Rupa mu
Masih masih masih masih...

Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu Kamu

Tiada mengapa tau sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya...

and i just love it to fill the air

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Haha ga kureta takusan no yasashisa
Ai wo idaite ayumeto kurikaeshita
Ano toki wa mada osanakute imi nado shiranai
Sonna watashi no te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Yume wa itsumo sora takaku aru kara
Todokanakute kowai ne dakedo oitsuzukeru no
Jibun no story dakara koso akirametakunai
Fuan ni naruto te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai
Mirai e mukatte
Yukkuri to aruite yukou

Mirai E - Kiroro

*and i know when it's my theraphy

How LEO Are You?

You are 100% Leo

How Leo Are You?

According to the test, I am 100% LEO.

So any LEO who come across this, try it yourself...

you'll be amazed with the question while laughing out loud and telling ur crazy self that "that is so me!"

I met a LEO guy recently. Honestly, I never met any that I can be friend with and as a matter of fact, I never have any guy friend who are LEO.

So, the minutes I know that this friend is Leo, I knew it that I have to get to know him.

I want to know how a Leo guy run their life, and carry their way of thinking...

And in fact, among the first question I asked him was "are you as complicated as myself?"

Am I?

If Only I Could

If you are tired, I'm tired too.

When you should know which way to go, I too have to actually find the way for you. And I'm tired of that!

Being there, sitting there alone, and expecting some miracle?

Do you think it can happen?

I don't think so, but of course I know you are actually expecting some miracle from me...

I have more than 1001 miracle in my head that I'm desparately need those to be happened, if only it could happen. Which I believe it will happen.

Sometimes, I try to ignore, I try not to bother.

But the harder I try, I just can't do that...it is part of me..honestly? sometimes I give up.

I too sometimes feel like to run away, but I won't do that. That's not me..towards you...

My heart? it is sick...and sometimes I silently hate you. Do I have any options? Oh yes! But not the decent one, so I opt not to have an options now...sigh..

Can I just ignore? Can I just take you for granted? Can I just leave the crazy world and deserted myself in a very peaceful place where no one could find me? so I can do whatever I want to do?

If only I could...

It's All About Them

so i'm running my life a bit up and down lately.

errands & meetings during weekdays, shooting jobs weekends and some shooting marathon whenever we are free.

i'm getting ready for some few jobs coming over during the CNY weeks. 2 engagements and 3 weddings. since SIREH has only 2 partners, we have to call our residence photographer to give his hands.

on the other side of life, i just can't help it when i miss a soul terribly. tsk..tsk..tsk..

Mr Theraphy has been busy for the past few weeks, so no news. (which i know that is the nature)

and now he's in Scotland for some family business and should be back by the end of the month.

Leaving again to Venezuela after CNY which I'm not sure if there's any room for some meeting...sigh!

Another soul, Ms Frutinia, is back to town after sometimes in Jitra for her other business.

We are with a crash plan on something which will make us suppose to be rich! yea, rite!

But, still waitinggggg..................

And she has to go back to Jitra again for the FIL wedding! what??? wedding? oh yeah..and he's in his 70's...

The MC...oklah...but nothing much bout him..but kinda fun too!

Small Girl..? of yes, she's happy now, working at somewhere very close to home.

Others, BA, KT keep on bothering me, but i just hardly say no to these friends. It's not that I don't want to but I just don't feel I'm gonna like it. It's just not my cuppa tea. Sorry friends, sorry for keep on turning down the offer.

The Photographer..yeay..I like! Busy like hell...yeah but the words always reach me via the thin air...and I know where to find it, and it make the passion to shoot grow more and more. And it never fails to make me smile...i know..i know..but just can't help it.

But I love them all!

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 42% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

How Selfish Are You?

this is from Azra's.

i think i am more selfish now, when i like my new attitude with 'whatever' kinda thing which i know hit some parties hard...

It's A Miracle

I pay a visit to some old friends yesterday for some lunch and stuff. I didn't see some of them since I left SLB last June. Owh...I miss them a lot!

But all in all, something really hit me the minutes I see one of them.

Knowing her (of course not all about her I know) it was a total suprise... and I mean TOTAL!

Somehow, a weird feeling run thru my vein, i feel repent.

I'm not pias to tell that what kind of life she has, but somehow it shows. I'm not a decent person either and only God knows what I did...

So for this friend (i know sooner or later she's going to read this):

Clubs, yes

Smoking, of course

Drink, yes...

Others, you know what...only God knows

and fasting, I noticed she don't really fast last year...(I notice the difference this year babe, you woke up for sahur...I knew it from you know where...)

The minutes I saw her, I thought it was a fashion kinda thing, something like fashion of the week, or month or some event occur that day. I just can't believe it for real.

It took me minutes to compose my words, to think carefully how should I start to ask and for sure I wanted to know the story behind all of this badly...it was a complete mix feelings.

I think it was a miracle that I witnessed yesterday, she is with a very proper tudung covered her long blond curly sexy hair...( i like her hair very much)

and the outfit...it's cool, something usual but she really look different with the tudung. It blends well and suits her.

So I started to ask her question, a proper question on how did this happen to her. What make her change and so on.

At the end of the story (which I'd rather not to put on detail here) it shows right in front of me how did God choose whoever He wants to show them the right path of life.

1:1 In the name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful:
1:2 Praise be to God, the Lord of the Worlds.
1:3 The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
1:4 King of the Day of Judgment.
1:5 You alone we worship, and You alone we ask for help
1:6 Guide us to the straight way;
1:7 The way of those whom you have blessed, not of those who have deserved anger, nor of those who stray.

Amin...