If Only I Could

If you are tired, I'm tired too.

When you should know which way to go, I too have to actually find the way for you. And I'm tired of that!

Being there, sitting there alone, and expecting some miracle?

Do you think it can happen?

I don't think so, but of course I know you are actually expecting some miracle from me...

I have more than 1001 miracle in my head that I'm desparately need those to be happened, if only it could happen. Which I believe it will happen.

Sometimes, I try to ignore, I try not to bother.

But the harder I try, I just can't do that...it is part of me..honestly? sometimes I give up.

I too sometimes feel like to run away, but I won't do that. That's not me..towards you...

My heart? it is sick...and sometimes I silently hate you. Do I have any options? Oh yes! But not the decent one, so I opt not to have an options now...sigh..

Can I just ignore? Can I just take you for granted? Can I just leave the crazy world and deserted myself in a very peaceful place where no one could find me? so I can do whatever I want to do?

If only I could...