while i'm working...

The music collection playing around accompanying me with the works that I'm struggling to make myself master the process. But I'm kinda like it after the whole process completed.
Tired sometimes, checking my fb and reading the favorites blogs that i've been following around...these people are really good! go figure!

For the past few weeks, I was very super down, felt so much deeply hurt and trying very very hard to get myself back in place and on the track.
As for now, with the supports from friends and some magic words wrote to me...yeah, I'm surviving. Though, it is still not entirely.

B is away for car service and latest I know he's at in-laws for lunch...(no i hadn't had my lunch yet)...sigh!

It is not easy for me to give up and to forget everything, the memories come and go...sometimes I am strong enough not to cry again, but at this very moment, I have to say that I miss the energy that used to lingered around me...
I feel empty, but I'm also tired...I miss a soul, again and still...

And yesterday, a very good friend of mind suggesting me to visit someone...but it was just a phone call I made and the information I received gave me an extreme surprise!
I was shaking...and alone with the information received.

But, unconciously I felt different, better perhaps...

Pray for me...I really need a strength now...