I'm tired...very...

In a midst of piles of emails after my long holiday, in a midst of still enjoying the mood of great raya with family & relatives, a long overdue phone call hit me with a super LONG unexpected lecture…
With the content that I’ve heard so many times and I have no different comment to made, nor do I have different justification to give, the splurge of words that make me really speechless and tired!
I don’t take it as bored, I don’t take it as useless or plays like a broken records…no!
Not a single point being brought I don’t agree, I appreciate the concern, the sensitivity and whatever reason you call it.
Yes, I understand that completely. The consequences, the things people might think or do without us realizing it…it is all completely true!
But what do you want me to do?
Are you telling me out of your concern about me or out of your concern to protect yourself?!
You know you tell me all this cos you think I can take it, YES, I still can take it…
But the way you say things as if I AM the only one made the actions…hello?! Never heard of it takes two to tango?
I am sorry, very sorry to bother you with all this matters, obviously it is unnecessary…but again, we don’t be in this situation to jeopardize everything nor to ruin and bring down everything. No we don’t! We are just human…what more can I say? Why you keep on saying the words to me, as if I am not careful? As if I don’t bloody bother to watch my steps?
Being a practical person, I can shut down everything tho it will hurt me to death! That’s one thing for sure…but I will do that if that can make you feel comfortable and to throw out all the unnecessary concerns and worries from inside your head.
Physically, we can be disturbed and we can tell off and it’ll be over, but if the things are lingered unseen and it bothers you from every angle, tell me if you need my action. I can do that….to be back to the square one…if that is what you need…
Stop telling me that you don’t know what to say…you don’t have to but ironically you just said! You said tones of things! You throw me your words, words that were in your head that ready to be exploded! I’m sorry if accidentally we crossed each other paths! I’m sorry! But tell me, how did it all started?

I’m tired…really I’m tired.
At this moment, I don’t want anything, I don’t want anybody, anyone!

Hello people! Whatever you wish!